unkillable monster

and yet again the monster has escaped from its cage leaving me torn and bleeding......will this never stop?...i suppose it never will.......forward progress is made......happy me.......and then i stop watching it........and someone slips in and opens the cage door...................................................................................only this time im very very tired of fighting it...........so for once it can have its way with me.........and i shall see how this all ends.......not talking of suicide not a coward....love my family to much........but done battling against an endless tide.................................................................................................................................................. i shall see who wins the monster or me......................................at this point i dont really care anymore.........