Sunday, January 6, 2013

snips

hey y'all, its been a while between posts, or even reading your blogs, sorry.

two weeks before xmas, i caught the arizona version of the flu from hell.  laid in bed coughing and sneezing and feverish.  missed loads of time at the library, missed going to see "the hobbit' with the movie bears, missed loads of stuff.  started to feel a bit better and then it was time to

head home to alaska for xmas.  got off the plane at -44.  it was so cold that the jetways were all frozen and we had to sit at the gate until they could find a gate that would work.  finally one of the six decided to level out so a tug came and pushed/pulled us to that gate.

it was super nice to be with TH again.  2nd son and his wife came by.  talked to youngest on the phone several different nights as he drove home from work.  and then we went over to his house for thai food and pictures of their vacation in italy.  what a wonderful night that was, but i did feel sorry for youngest, as us being there meant that he had to go with a shortened sleep cycle.  he is working 14 hour days 6 days a week, he is one tired guy.

we did "xmas" dinner at a restaurant. 2nd son and his wife didnt come up for the holiday.  but the other boys did come, including eldest who brought the grand baby.  and it was clear that he didnt really want to be there.  i have no idea why he even said he would come if he really didnt want to be there with us all.  and no, it wasnt just TH and I he didnt mesh well with, he also didnt talk much with son #3, or his aunt, TH's sister.  so idk what's up with him, and at this point in time, am getting to the point where i could care less.

flew back to az on a warm alaskan evening, 10 above at home!  w00t!  to come back to an empty house.  no TH, no one to talk to, alone again.

my battle with depression/grief is ongoing to the point where i'm thinking of going to either a therapist or an acupuncturist.  yes, acupuncture does help with grief, ive used it before, and it helped center my emotions.

thanks for listening,
biki

4 comments:

Bob said...

I think talking to someone might really help.
As for your son who may or may not want to be around family, those are his "issues" and shouldn't--though I'm sure they did--affect you.
Too bad her couldn't have left "them" at home.


I'm still freaking out, though, at -44.
O..........M..........G

R.J. said...

I'm glad you're back online. I was worried something happened to you.

Sorry to hear about the family drama. That's why certain family members no longer attend holiday get togethers. We all got fed up with the Jerry Springer-like atmosphere.

If you think you need help, then it's definitely time to go get it. I had no idea acupuncture would help with depression, but I'll definitely keep it in mind.

Jay M. said...

Glad you got well, had a roudtrip that was safe, and even with the family drama, you had a good time with TH and the boys. I know about attitudes and tensions - I swear it seems the littlest things trigger crap in my family.

I've heard good things about acupuncture. I, too, think maybe talking to someone would help - there's got to be a better choice of therapists in AZ than AK.

Peace <3
Jay

Aek said...

I will never ever visit Alaska . . . I don't understand why it's even inhabited. Humans aren't meant to live in such bleeping cold . . .