I've been very lonely this time, the adventure portion of the program has passed, and now tis just daily living. Volunteering has helped quite a bit, at least it gets me out of the house everyday, and gives me something else to think about, and there are people to chat with, so thats helpful. However, I wanted someone(s) to be able to go and hang out with, but where to meet people on the quick? A co-worker told me about meetup.com and how they have groups for everything under the sun. Sure enough! There are groups for everything and anything you could think of.
I signed up for two groups. One is the movie bears, and my first meeting with them will be this Saturday, and tonight was my first meeting with the books and beer crowd. This was the inaugural meet up, so that helped quell my nerves a lot. Knowing that no one knew each other either, made it much easier for me. It can be hard to break into a long term group, due to the clique factor.
About 24 people showed up, which by anyone's yard stick is a win! It was a bit slow at the beginning, but then people warmed up and started chatting with each other. The only down side to the entire night, was that it was so loud in the restaurant, it was quite hard to hear some of the people. After a while, most of us got up and sat next to a different group of people, yes I did so as well. Did a really good job of being forward and squashing my usual tendency to be shy.
Usually, whenever I'm out of my comfort zone, I have to dress as boy as possible. Often if the occasion calls for me to be full on girl, its a total nightmare emotionally. Today? I went as a girl, wore jeans and a black thermal girls henley, not uber girl, but within my comfort zone. I just decided to man up and be the fuck brave, and go for it. I did darken my eyebrows a lot, and used the same pencil to do a guy liner look. And? I went to work like that. I'm thinking I like looking unusual, after xmas, it just might be time to go look for some clothes for that unconventional look that makes me feel less fractured and more me.
And yeah, I didnt make a fake scar......
We picked the book "Enders Game". Which is an ok book an all, but really I dont want to give that lgbt hater my money! So, I'll be checking the book out of the library, dontcha know. Our next meeting isnt until January, boo! But at least I have something to look forward to, and there is xmas and new years in there sucking up time from people's schedules.