im beginning to think that my idea of keeping the girl suit and accepting my life as a hidden man, was flawed.
and so the thrashing around within my bindings continues..........
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Monday, January 30, 2012
adrift
im struggling with the whole gender/sex thing. i cant be a guy. im not comfortable being seen as a woman. i even have a hard time typing woman in reference to myself. im rather at the end of the road here. (not suicidal, ok?) i dont know where to go from here. the one open lane, is something im not comfortable with, the other is beyond my reach. i know it sounds like more of the same same whining from me, and for that im sorry, but its eating at me. its like acid dripping me away.
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I fear that until you find some direction that works for you, and all the others in your life, you will continue to thrash. I pray you will find peace one way or another.
ReplyDeletePeace <3
Jay
You're not whining; you're wrestling. Big difference!
ReplyDeleteHave you looked into trans groups in your new home-away-from-home?
*HUG*
It's possible you may need to get out of your comfort zone and try something different that might work. I'm still trying to get a handle on things on a daily basis. Sometimes I'm good. Other times I'm not.
ReplyDeleteHang in there.
I agree with Lightning, it's not whining.
ReplyDeleteYou need to do what's best for you. Trying to satisfy everyone in your orbit doesn't work if it doesn't alos satisfy you.
Peace.