Ok, life is pretty damned perfect! TH (the husband) watched "Taboo" on Nat Geo, the topic was "The Third Sex". The trans people on the show were m2f's, but seeing their faces when they talked about being trapped inside the wrong body, explained more to him in the length of the show than I have managed to explain to him over the course of nearly a year. When he saw the relief in one woman's face after having completed her surgery, now at long last her body conformed to her gender, he finally understood what its like for me. I really believe that was the turning point for him, his pivot to really and honestly getting it.
Since that show, our lives have changed dramatically. He is much more open with me now, and I no longer feel so tongue tied around him. So, I'm opening up more to him, and he is at long last willing and able to listen to me. This is such a relief you cant even imagine, part of my depression has been the gulf between us, that I didn't know how to bridge. While we don't have the same taste in many things, we do mesh well together in life. Having that large and silent wasteland between us, that I didn't know how to fix or if it could even be fixed, was cutting me off from my best friend, my confidant, my love.
We talked long into the night several days in a row. But what really meant the most to me, is when he told me he would love me forever, no matter what body I'm in. And that if I changed my mind, and transitioned, he would move stateside with me. He didn't promise anything more than trying. And yeah, I'm ok with him possibly not being able to deal with me in a man's body, I know that there is no way I could deal with him a girls body.
I have the ticket, the room reserved, and have paid for my place at the conference. So, everything is all set for me to go. I have looked at the workshop chart and there are a few places where I'm truly divided about what to attend. If you are curious about the conference here is their link.
So, for all of you bloggers out there I would need to ask you for help. They are holding a dance, and at first I wasn't going to dress up for it, but have since changed my mind. So, here's the question. Its being called a Decade Dance, and I'm supposed to dress up as my favorite decade. Now, first off the idea that someone could/ would even have a favorite decade rather surprised me to no end. I mean come on, really? A favorite decade? Anyway, I need clothing help. I have no idea what to wear at all. Remember that I need male clothing, yeah? And please, no suggestions of disco clothing. Cause I really don't like my clothes to shout HERE I AM LOOK AT ME! Any suggestions?